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Sorry I have been away, But I had to deal with myself
by: Helena
It's been a rough couple of months. I am trying to live past the pain.

I was doing well. I was adjusting to my new life. I was what I thought was together. Then, all the lies crashed to my feet. I was dashing across the street to catch a cab, when I hit the wall. Denial is a hard wall. I only wish it were a river in Egypt. I saw my ex holding hands with some woman at local bistro. It was a public display of affection. He use to say tell me that it was not appropriate or made him uncomfortable.

Well it does not matter what he used to say or used to do. I was mad. I was pull out her hair and scratch his eyes out mad. As I pulled myself away from the spectacle and into the cab, I started crying. Luckly, Leigh was at Grama's for the weekend, because I cried all weekend. Matter of fact, I am still crying. I love a man who does not love me. Him leaving did not end it. The divorce did not end it, and seeing him go on with his life does not end it.

What do you do when all you ever wanted is gone? How do you move past the pain? I wanted this column to generate hope. I do not have any today. I am trying to desparately live past the pain.

If you are out there, how do you live past the pain?